Mini reflecting

I'm sitting here all snuggled in my fleece pajama's under a blanket on the sofa thinking about how thankful I am to have what I have and to have experienced things and have met people in my life. God guided me through this life and helped guide me through developing my personality and my thoughts. I'm proud to be a mixture of two different nationalities. I'm Chinese and Swedish born and raised in Hawaii and live in the United States. That's really neat! I'm prould to be asian. I love the food and I'm prould to be of white/european blood. I really do have two worlds and how it's interesting how I turned out. Actually, just being mixed is interesting. I'm happy that I grew up in Hawaii. My outlook on life and being surrounded by different people has made me comfertable with different cultures. In fact, it's so interesting experiencing and learning about different cultures. I am so thankful to have friends that I've known since I was a child. All the memories that are never going to fade and continuous memories that we are still creating. Although, i'm miles away I'm just so happy to know that my friends have me in their heart just as I have them in mine as well. For the most part... I can say... pretty much majority of the people I have met in my life have been interesting people. Even through tough situations that I've had with a handful... it's all turned out good. I am so expecially thankful to god for bringing Mark into my life. It's like at that time in my life when Mark was brought in... I hadn't plan on anyone coming into my life although alot of very nice people had come in at that time. Just something about him that really connected with me just made so much sense. How often do you realllly feel that type of feeling? Thinking back on previous relationships and guys i've dated... it was just no where near someone i feel so comfertable with so fast and how it felt as if i knew him longer. I am truely happy and thankful for him and I hope god continues to lead us in the right direction and continuously bring joy to our hearts. Anyways.... it's Friday night and I think i'm gonna start enjoying the start to my weekend. toodles noodles! :o)

not feeling good....

today... was not the greatest days!! don't feel too good... drinking up the airborne and popping pills.. and amazingly i went and pulled a muscle in my back picking up yumi today. I guess I was kinda mad b/c she pee'd in the wrong bathroom. So, I picked her up way to fast in the wrong way and pulled a muscle... now I'm walking like an old grandma and I move like a turtle. Really sucks to be me today.... I'm trying to get my back feeling better b/c I have to work tomorrow. Got the heating/massaging pad on/icy hot rubbed on and the salonpas pads to be slapped on pretty soon before i decide to fully hybernate in bed until tomorrow morning. I think i'm gonna call it a realllly early bed time today. like at 6ish pm. Anyways, on a happy note.. gas is $1.89 today. I managed to make it up the street to a gas station to fill up before the work week. Hope it keeps going down. I've been told around 5ish years ago gas was at .99 cents for awhile. That would be super awesome. It used to cost me 70ish for a full tank at our highest $4.80 i wanna say it was. Something like that... now I pay about $30 for a full tank. whuhuuu.... Hey they should keep gas down. With the economy that's the least they can do. Anyways, i'm going into bed now. I got out of bed to eat dinner and now I need to get back in. This sucks!!! :o(

Black Friday

So, last year my first year doing the whole black friday thing. I woke up and got to kohls last year by 5am. This year.... I decided, I'm going to go to the Premium Outlet Mall... mainly because they have stores that I like there. My favorite malls in Vegas are the Fashion Mall and Las Vegas Premium Outlets.. especially now b/c they opened a bunch of better stores that I shop at like Bebe and Juicy. Okay, so how today started was awakening to my loud cell phone alarm. I almost couldn't wake up too... being that Mark and I went to bed at 12ish b/c we got home late from Thanksgiving dinner at Auntie Malene's house. Also, had to get the trash bin and my two boxes of trash out when we got home which takes time and making sure the dogs eat and stuff. Anyways, So... we both decided on going to Best Buy b/c we've been wanting a tv for our bedroom just haven't really went out to get one. Since it's black Fridays and they have super cheap deals.. what the heck? So, at 5am.. jumped in the car and went to Best Buy.. luckily we only live like 5-10 mins away. Got there and OMG tons of people. Parking was pretty full too so I had Mark jump out and get started while i searched for parking. Finally, found parking and walked my sleepy butt into Best Buy... Luckily, Mark was able to snatch the television we wanted. I am so thankful that we live next to a big best buy and that there were no lines to get in... I was actually concerned about that. I was also concerned that the tv we wanted would be sold out b/c it was sold out in a few hours online. But, anyway we went with a 32" LCD Samsung for the bedroom... they were only 500 bucks. Normally, this tv would be roughly 800+ dollars. We really like the Samsungs.. I suggest to everyone if you're considering a new flatscreen... samsungs are great. We have a 42" in our living room and it's awesome! Also, I just had to say.. the 42" we have.. we had purchased for $1200 on sale... today for black friday that same tv we have... was $800... So, anybody who got that got a deal!! Anyways.... so by 5:45am we were able to make it back home and back into bed. I was debating on if i should go straight to the outlet mall but I was super tired and just slept for a bit more. Around 8:15 I got up again and started to get ready... got to the Outlet mall around 10am and BAM carrrrssss all over the place. I had to park on the top floor and get real aggressive in the parking lot. hehe... shoot there's alot of people who want to cut in front of you (especially those California drivers.. they don't know how to drive) so I was sure to leave no room for cutters. Once I parked and walked down to the shop area, Ohhh lord.. it was just crazy. There were two diff News Channels there video taping the madness. I'm sure I could have found alot more deals than I did but I'm the type of person who get's tired really fast when I have to squeeze around and with all the people I was just loosing my mind. I got the crocs my mom wanted me to get for her... 2 sweaters from Nautica that I wanted to get and a jacket for Mark. I wanted to get something in Juicy but it was CRAZZZYYY in there. They had tons of bags, wallets, velour suits all for add'l 30% but I was just not in the mood especially with my two huge bags of shopping I already did. But, WOW that Juicy Store was PACKED!! Maybe next year i'll hit that store first! I say 3 super cute sweaters but just was in no mood to try anything on. It was just an absolute mess in there and women going nutts! So, I decided SCREW this.. ahhaha and I headed back to the car. My feet were hurting my hand were hurting... I was thirsty and man' did it feel so good to sit down in my car. After that craziness... I headed to petsmart to get doggie food for my babies and headed to walmart to look for a tv stand and some cables. Walmart was crazyyyy as well. This was already almost 2pm and Walmart was busy! Anyways, found a swivel top tv stand for the bedroom and headed home. Would I do this again next year? Probably not... but if I do.. I may consider going to Premium Outlet mall at 12 midnight when it started. I doubt it would be as crazy at that time... or MAYBE it will? O_O Anyways, don't plan to be going to any malls within the next couple of weeks. I still need to do the Christmas shopping. Black Friday just doesn't work for christmas shopping. Anyways, i'm gonna go eat my dinner and sleep early tonight. The day seemed to have just flew by... and I am just poooooped out! Gnite! :o)

P.S. Something I thought was interesting... on my drive back home the radio anounced that last year in a Walmart in Indiana... a couple of people were killed during the black friday madness... All the pushing and stress. I mean it must have been pretty bad.. but, I can't imagine... if I saw someone whom looked pretty bad I would start yelling at everyone else to chill the F*** out and help this person. That's pretty sad that people die during black friday! CRAZYY I tell yah! Crazzzyyy!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

It's Wednesday and I am DONEEEE for the work week. Whuuhooo i get a 4 day weekend. I really wanted to go back home but the tickets were 900 bucks which really sucks bunghoo.. but that's ok. =/ Anyways, I've come to the conclusion that I'm starting to really like my new job. It's been a month so far and I can say I like it. I like going to work... it's like apart of my life that just makes sense and fits in. I like hardly have any stress or bad feelings. It's kinda scary but nice. Anyways, Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I thought of a few things I'm thankful for. Mainly, I'm thankful for being healthy right now. I could loose a few pounds but I think my inside heart is beautiful! I'm thankful to have Mark in my life. I love him with all my heart and feel i'm very fortunate to have met someone whom just seems to fit with me. It's really hard to find that in a relationship. I'm thankful for my family as always!!! And i'm just thankful for everything I have in life right now. I'm thankful to have the friends I have... I'm truly blessed to have close friends. Friends who've known me since I was young. It's like having several sisters. Anyways, last week Mark and I found a Christmas tree at Big Lots. Nice simple tree for the two of us. I love it.... when I come home everyday it just feels really nice to look at it. During the night especially when I have the lights on. I just need to get a tree skirt and start putting presents.. the countdown to Christmas begins. I wanna go to Mt.Charleston and Bellagio Conservatory... Ethal M's cactus garden again. love love love Christmas. Anyways to end this.... I have a little vent to share. I've been really upset with the mail service recently. USPS, UPS, FEDEX.. my mom had sent me a package that was stolen or delivered to the wrong address through USPS... someone of course took the valuables in the box and returned the box to me with my pictures. I'm thankful to at least have my pictures b/c there were alot in there of my childhood. But, it just still irritates me to know that my neighbors has personal items that belong to me and were meant for me from my mom. Also, why do they leave packages at my door? I hate it! What happen to that card that they leave for me to pick up my box at the post office? It's so not secure.... today... I rcv'd something I ordered online and was shipped UPS. Online tracking says it's due to deliver a week from today... I happen to open my front door and a box is there. MY PACKAGE! I enter my house through the garage door so i never come through the front of the house... which is actually the back of my house b/c of the direction my front door faces. It's hard to explain if you haven't seen it. But UPS is supposed to have you SIGN for it I thought? So.... what the heck man? That was a very expensive purse that someone could have stolen b/c they left the package at my door. I hate the postal service. It takes one year for a worker to go through the hiring process yet they do things like this. Anyways... that's all I wanted to rant about... what can I do? From now on though... i'm having my packages shipped to my work place. I think it would be a bit more secure that way! At least I hope so.... Hope they don't leave packages at the front door there as well. Anyways.... Happy Thanksgiving! gobble gobble! :o)

Freezing Saturday

It's been awhile since I've blogged mainly b/c during the past couple of months I've just never really had the chance to sit down and reflect, nor was I in the mood to think about things that were going on at that moment. Alot has occurred... mostly stressful... but, now I can feel myself getting back to normal and feeling a little happier and calm each day. I wonder how long I'll continue to feel this strange feeling I feel time to time. I'm sure several others have felt like this too and it's a phase and takes an X amount of time depending on the individual. But, since moving from Hawaii... I still don't have that sense of feeling like I belong somewhere. I live in Las Vegas yet I can't get myself to really 100% fully enjoy Vegas. I've thought about it and tried to narrow it down to possibly being that I can't find ppl in which I can relate with on a good friend basis? I still have my best friends back home and in the mainland but it's just having that one girlfriend you can do just anything with living in the same state as you and just completely or almost completely understanding how you feel and just loving to do the same things you like to do. I mean sure millions of people out there in the world don't have this type of friend but I've been so used to having that type of friend that now being without is kind of tough. Anyway, I miss my California girl... you know who you are! haha.. ;o) I can't wait till she can come down whenever that is. hehe. But, anyway.. maybe I'm just over-analyzing the situation and I just need to get used to it. I have Mark, I have my two dogs.... I've gained another family here and I should actually be really fortunate to have that. I am thankful to have these people in my life but I guess it all just comes down to maybe me just really missing everyone who's been apart of entire life in Hawaii. I really want to go home to see my family but the timing just ain't working out especially with the new job. I guess I'll just have to wait until another year.... which would make that 4 yrs then since I've left Hawaii to go back home. There's time I irrationally think to buy a ridiculously overpriced airline ticket to go home for 2 days but it's really not worth the money for two days. Anywhooooo.... right now I'm freezing in my house. I can't really turn the heater on b/c Mark is a hot body. Always hot hot hot... and I'm always cold cold cold. Today we're going to hopefully find a little perfect artificial Christmas tree for our house. I want to have a nice Christmas this year and I want the feeling to be at home. I've already hung garlands along the kitchen bar counter and our railing going upstairs. Just needs a tree and a few more ornaments to complete the Christmas feeling. :o) I can't wait for Starbucks to come out with the holiday drinks too. I love the hot peppermint mocha espresso. I love ittt! I'm off this coming black friday and I'm thinking about whether I should drive to Kohl's to find some bargains. Last year I remember fighting the crowd buying home items b/c we just moved into this house. This year it'd be more of buying things I just want and Christmas Shopping too I guess. I'm a bit more of a thought person though when it comes to buying gifts.. I don't often just buy anything for a person. I try to think... sometimes too much if they'll like it or not. This year it may just be just finding some time to shop. Cheers for the holidays!! :o)

birthday wishes to a special person

Happy Birthday to you!!

Happy Birthday to you!!

Happy Birthday dear Darling....

Happy Birthday to you!!

Mark is officially 28 years old today. Had a pleasant evening at our favorite spot- Yoko Sushi. :o) We had been both saving our appetite all day just to eat some good sushi. Total was 7 rolls 3 plates of sashimi tuna kirai, 4 pieces of tuna nigiri and 2 pieces of unagi nigiri. To end the meal was two small bowls of green tea ice cream. We walked out two beluga whales. haha... It was a beautiful night. When we got home we fell asleep and woke up an hour and a half later to a little carrot cake birthday cake i picked up to celebrate on my way home today. I knew we'd be stuffed and we're not the big birthday cake fans but what's a birthday without a cake? So, Cobi, Yumi and I sang Happy Birthday to Daddy. May his birthday wish come truee!! i love him! :o) God, if your listening right now or taking messages... pls, help watch over us and guide us safetly through life. help us to be happy for many years to come. :o)

"You kiss my lips, I close my eyes, away we float to paradise. And all the people who stop to see... softly whisper, They were meant to be."

layed back sunday

it's 8:37 pm and i'm thinking about how my weekend has passed so fast and how i'm not ready to go back to work. Saturday mark and i had decided to drive to the other side of town into Henderson to check out the Hoolaulea. It was extremely hot but very nice to be surrounded by individuals whom come from the same place in which we call home- Hawaii... where the heart will always live. There were two stages with hula dancers and entertainers. The air was full of great smells coming from the boothes that sold local favorites. mark and i had char siu chicken, pork adobo, pork and peas guisantes and haupia mochi. The food was just ONO!! Although, the sun was blazing down on us we managed to enjoy the activities and spend about 3 hours just checking things out. By the time we arrived home we slept until 4pm. The sun in Las Vegas during the summer time really drains the energy from your body. But, overall it was a nice Saturday spent together.


Sunday- today was a very kick back kind of day. mark and i stayed home and watched a bunch of movies on Encore and just relaxed. I comtemplated for 2 hours this morning if i should go to church today or Wednesday. I knew mark wasn't feeling energetic and I was still pretty drained from Saturdays event that I decided i'll be attending Wednesday night service this week. I've been wanting to attend the wednesday night service anyway. Lately, i've just been feeling lost and really realizing how i really feel. It's nearing 2 years since we've moved to las vegas and slowly i'm growing used to this place. It's amazing how time really passes by. But, I enjoy living in las vegas. I do miss home greatly but for now, las vegas is home. Finally, finding a church "Canyon Ridge" really helps to fill a piece that was missing since we've moved here. I really enjoy this church. There's something about this place that really makes you feel like you belong and for me personally it helps me feel a bit stronger each time. Like there's hope for me and that i truely will be okay. i have so many stresses right now and just alot of healing to go through that only will happen within passing of time. it's hard when you feel just missing pieces and voids that you really can't figure out how to fill. Eventually, i'll be able to help myself or things will just fall into place.



"Difficulties are opportunities to better things, they are stepping stones to greater experiences. Perhaps some day you will be thankful for some temporary failure in a particular direction. When one door closes, another always opens."