Freezing Saturday

It's been awhile since I've blogged mainly b/c during the past couple of months I've just never really had the chance to sit down and reflect, nor was I in the mood to think about things that were going on at that moment. Alot has occurred... mostly stressful... but, now I can feel myself getting back to normal and feeling a little happier and calm each day. I wonder how long I'll continue to feel this strange feeling I feel time to time. I'm sure several others have felt like this too and it's a phase and takes an X amount of time depending on the individual. But, since moving from Hawaii... I still don't have that sense of feeling like I belong somewhere. I live in Las Vegas yet I can't get myself to really 100% fully enjoy Vegas. I've thought about it and tried to narrow it down to possibly being that I can't find ppl in which I can relate with on a good friend basis? I still have my best friends back home and in the mainland but it's just having that one girlfriend you can do just anything with living in the same state as you and just completely or almost completely understanding how you feel and just loving to do the same things you like to do. I mean sure millions of people out there in the world don't have this type of friend but I've been so used to having that type of friend that now being without is kind of tough. Anyway, I miss my California girl... you know who you are! haha.. ;o) I can't wait till she can come down whenever that is. hehe. But, anyway.. maybe I'm just over-analyzing the situation and I just need to get used to it. I have Mark, I have my two dogs.... I've gained another family here and I should actually be really fortunate to have that. I am thankful to have these people in my life but I guess it all just comes down to maybe me just really missing everyone who's been apart of entire life in Hawaii. I really want to go home to see my family but the timing just ain't working out especially with the new job. I guess I'll just have to wait until another year.... which would make that 4 yrs then since I've left Hawaii to go back home. There's time I irrationally think to buy a ridiculously overpriced airline ticket to go home for 2 days but it's really not worth the money for two days. Anywhooooo.... right now I'm freezing in my house. I can't really turn the heater on b/c Mark is a hot body. Always hot hot hot... and I'm always cold cold cold. Today we're going to hopefully find a little perfect artificial Christmas tree for our house. I want to have a nice Christmas this year and I want the feeling to be at home. I've already hung garlands along the kitchen bar counter and our railing going upstairs. Just needs a tree and a few more ornaments to complete the Christmas feeling. :o) I can't wait for Starbucks to come out with the holiday drinks too. I love the hot peppermint mocha espresso. I love ittt! I'm off this coming black friday and I'm thinking about whether I should drive to Kohl's to find some bargains. Last year I remember fighting the crowd buying home items b/c we just moved into this house. This year it'd be more of buying things I just want and Christmas Shopping too I guess. I'm a bit more of a thought person though when it comes to buying gifts.. I don't often just buy anything for a person. I try to think... sometimes too much if they'll like it or not. This year it may just be just finding some time to shop. Cheers for the holidays!! :o)